Letter for my beloved father

March 28 should be one of the happy day as my hubby’s birthday. But this year.. I never imagine I should loss you that time. It really broke my heart to see you go. We will never be ready for losing our loved ones.

You’re so full of spirit, wise, tough, humorous, smart,.. so many things I adore from you.  I’m so proud to have you as my father. I really thank God that He gave you as my father. You’re my role model.

I remember that you brought me bunch of flowers every year for my birthday when I was a little. You taught me so many things. You taught me about how to drive, how to change car tire, how to deal with people. You taught me about life. I admire your thought and the way you see life thru your eyes.

I apologized if I ever disappointed you or made you feel sad. I never mean to do that. And I’m so sorry for the things I should’ve done but don’t have a chance to do that. I haven’t bought your birthday present this year. I’ve been thinking to cook for you that I ever done long time ago. But we can’t avoid fate that God loves you more.

At your last moment, you still told me that you feel like an astronaut with so many cables around you. But you’re no longer an astronaut, you’re an angel now. I believe you have your wings now.

Memories about you will always stay in my heart, pop. I believe you’re no longer in pain now. Your soul in peace now. You will prepare some place for us to stay -up above. You’re now our guardian angel.

I will always love you, pop.

Miss you so much.


Donatus Joenarto Soetiono
11.03.1940 - 28.03.2014